...a Ride,

I thought you were my ride or die

Now I sit here asking why
Why do you not love me the way I love you?
Your feelings changing, Can’t mine change too?
I wish I did not care so it wouldn’t hurt this much
Run further away the tighter I clutch
I wish we were still same two people who fell head over heels
Watched as we changed, I hate how this feels

I told you my secrets and my biggest fears
In return you remained by my side throughout the years
You have made life better than I ever expected
Tried my best to keep you from feeling neglected
I know not the easiest person to be around
You’re there each time I need help up off the ground
I promise will never stop fighting for what we’ve got
A reason you overtake each and every thought Are you lying?
You say you’re still in love with me
There’s someone else who with you'd rather be
When saying “always” I meant you’d always have my heart
Guess when you said it you meant I’d always have a part
But that piece I will cherish and save
Carry til I’m resting in my grave
I thought I would be your ride or die until the very end
Guess that to you our relationship is dead

...Life in a day,

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..Want to tell about our journey of a day,

A day where we lived whole life like a way,

A day, will remain fresh and alive for life time,

After consoling that day before yesterday's mash up, we sorted and began with new beginning.

I was not aware about the coming day. I was not aware about today, which was going to be almost one life with you. Now i know i am not able to explain a life in a post. but i would definitely share that every role, that every side and that every character we shared to each other. I will share every type of our togetherness.

08.00 am

(Role of Concerning)

With your yummy message i started my day with lots of anxiety and excitement. i made breakfast for you and i planned that surprise propose for your life time f.sip. A song was looping in my head and bluetooth almost 1000th time. I got ready and i moved to the place to celebrate the day.

09.00 am

(Role of Love)

I bought requires and i reached a place. i made everything ready and still a song was giving me background music to my feels in mind. i was imaging that how it is going to be happened and you came while. I did as i thought and you surprised. That on knee proposal with roses and crown of award made sparkles in your eyes and shine on your wide smile. That made me buzzed and you gave me your special book. Just it's cover made me jealous almost about 12% with his author. i started that and i found every line was making me falling in love with you madly. I felt your presence, i felt like its all my memories of non lived moments.

10.30

(Role of Care)

Than we started ahead and we shared some action of pasts, some conversation about a day before and some clear feels and clarifications for the same. Your thanks and appreciation for my effort of proposal and more discussion or decision about upcoming us. I told to to move with best of our f.sip and creating world's top secrete unnamed relation. You and your smile were involving. A tea came and equally you went away for some work and i got a chance. I took a cup of tea and that breakfast on your table and seated back normally. you came and i was waiting for your reaction. you opened that and you said that its your favorite. that was so peaceful. I looked at you and you were happy while having bites from it and for me it was feeding my tummy as well. i loved your lips when they just kissed my food and water.

12.00 pm

(Role of Share)

Songs were started. we discussed some of songs and feels. you asked me for one music and i played the same. It's meaning full line which was being pointed by you to me was amazing. and after the same i played that one song too for you. that dedicating lines and music and warm atmosphere was so mild for us to be with each other. we were being so comfortable that we forgot even that where we are and time flows on and on.

01.30 pm

(Role of Talk)

I remind you about your time you wound up your side and moved for your time of call while going you gave me a pleasant smile which i kept on my lips in absence of your. i was waiting, silence was around like deep lake water by allowing that looping song as in background music of my mind still. Any movement or sound was giving my mind a hint like possibly she is coming back.

You called me. it sparked my mind and i suddenly just moved towards you. i set in front of you and we started conversation again. we got a serious topic and probably we were sharing very practically. I realized that how comfortable i was with you to share or discuss such things like that. I was feeling proud to have you like my hold.

03.00 pm

(Role of Passion)

We were back on a place and while talking i approached you for a dance and you just replied positive instantly. it was not amazing but i loved to hold you close. I felt your touch warm, that professional moves and steps and that practical sharing made me strong to believe that we had enough trust between us for our hold. then we drop that plan and we moved to acting. we made a scene and i dont know how you did that. You did i like i was blank. I was shocked and i was not able to figure out that what just happened. You know well, you justified that well and you related that character so well that i forgot even that it was an acting. Yes, i will not forget that eve contact we had through the same. Amazingly best.

04.00 pm

(Role of Fun)

Biggest mistake i have done or biggest punishment i have received by god that you got to know about my that weakest thing which is not manageable for me in my life. Its physical and you did that so madly that i was not able to be fake in that. i was laughing like a kid i know and that was making you so happy. you did it with so much fun and happiness. you found me so real and pure that you just loved to watch my that part and for the same you were just repeating that again and again. And finally to stop you, i did that embarrassing thing. I know you didn't misunderstood you even after knowing that it was intentional. the best was you found a right intention of mine behind that. But let me confess, i loved that thing. I felt the same what you felt by my that action. and i know you will not misunderstand my this confession too. But yes, i am sure that if you will continue with your side, i will not miss to do my one too.

05.00 pm

(Role of Understand)

I shared that very big secret that happened with me and related with our mutual person. You know that person well and i just told you about our some exchange and some private talks. After knowing whole matter you gave me credit of many big things. You told me that its a great thing to understand any person in such condition in which whole world can misunderstand that opposite person. But i would like to tell you, that you are that much good too that you understood that person and even me too well after sharing that such matter to you. I loved your trust, i loved your level of understanding too. I loved that you also relate that person's side and understood well without my any justification and clarification even without anymore details.

06.00 pm

(Role of Appreciation)

After doing all the above roles perfectly, the perfect thing i had is your appreciation. I love your way to say bye. I love your way to explain things perfectly without expressing in detail. I loved your finishing. I loved your that final touch, final closeness. I would say, time just stopped for me when you did that, you touched and transferred your love, care, proud, respect concern, support, appreciation and requirements. You fulfills every need of time and moment. You are perfect touch of life. And than its ended. Its ended by moving from there towards home, by sharing road, by sharing expressions,by smiles, by sparkles in eyes, by waving hand and saying bye.

Thousands of the thing i have not covered which had happened there. But i can say,

It was a journey from your winning of 

BEST HOLD AND SOUL OF THE UNIVERSE 

to my winning of 

GENTLEMAN OF YOUR LIFE

It was a day where we lived whole life.

_keyur_everything

...Funny Forgiveness,

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Forgiveness
is a funny thing.

It has no boundaries
but we end up putting them there
anyway

And sometimes forgiveness
is easier said
than done.

When I look beyond my waist, I see
all the forgiveness
you've given me

The pain you've tolerated
The time you've waited
The space you've instated
reminds me
your forgiveness
knows no end.

I look below my hips and see
all the times
you felt like nobody

I didn't know you then
I didn't know me then,
either
I only knew the light of the moon
when everyone else
was walking in daylight.

I look to my thighs and see
all the hatred
I came to believe

Not for others, no-
for the words,
the actions,
the things my eyes said
when my mind knew otherwise
and my heart screamed in agony

Sometimes forgiveness
is easier said
than done.
Especially for one
giving so much effort
to forgive themselves
when everyday they see
the person they used to be

...UnLove You,

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I unlove you
I don't care if it's a neologism
It's my heart you imprisoned
And I unlove you for that

You were everything I wanted
Because I love everything you're not
I love it a lot, like a lot a lot
And I love what you don't look like
I've fallen head over heels for
Whose personality you don't resemble
I long for the way your kisses differ
How the *** isn't as curricular
But of course that's not enough

I want to want you
And "you" is an easy word to rhyme with
So that's what I won't do
See how easily I'm distracted away
From what you've got, what I can't say?
Because all I know is what you don't relay
How we share a not-so-bad day
I've got a question... if I may

I should love you for what you've got, right?
For all you are and not for who you're not, right?
If this holds true, we'll descend from the spotlight
'Cause I don't care about who you are, just who you're not quite
I unlove you with my whole heart
And I refuse to dig any further
I like to love everthing you're not about
And I pray that's okay with you

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_keyur_everything

..YAAT,

...jene jota xan ane dhabkar chuki javay,

jene sambhadta pankhio no kalrav sambhaday,

jene sparshta hriday ma vasant anubhavay,

evi chhe e Jhalli, jenu naam nai kehvay,

jena sameepe bhini maati ni mahek patharay,

jena hasvathi koina pan dukh dur thay,

jene madvathi sukh nu pan vishmaran thai jaay,

evi chhe e Jhalli, jenu naam nai kehvay,  

jena jova thi shan bhaan bhuli javay,

jene yaad karvathi samay bas tya j thambhi jaay,

jena sparshvathi mamta no vantol udbhav thay,

evi chhe e Jhalli, jenu naam nai kehvay,  

jene bhetvathi swaaso no ehsaas pan thay,

jene chumvathi amaratv no ashirwad madi jaay,

jene chahva thi jivan no santosh madi jaay,

evi chhe e Jhalli, jenu naam nai kehvay,  

jene pamva thi bas ante moksh madi jaay,

jeno saath hoy to mrutyu pan parat fari jaay,

jena mate koi aag no daryo tari jaay,

evi chhe e Jhalli, jenu naam nai kehvay,  

tu bhale hoy koina dil ni raani,

tu bhale hoy koi any ni deewani,

chahat ma tari bas ek j chhe prarthana,

humesha aavi j rahe tu jhalli,

jenu naam YAAT kehvay,

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_keyur_everythig

HBD JBS

Hey dear,

On this precious day of your born on this earth, I am wishing you all the greatest wishing as much as I can. As a gift, it’s always been difficult for me to choose what can fulfill my feels and your need at a time. But I did manage somehow to give this to you this time.

Your this birthday is special. Because may be this is a last long distance wish of mine for this life. I genuinely pray that time could not make me to do this again ever in my life. By being honest, I would like to tell you that I am not that much perfect in this thing as you are. But this time, I intended to do such for you. I am not a good writer as you but at least I can write what I mean for.

This letter is an effort to tell you what I feel. I want to tell you that yes, sooner we will be together forever. We will do promises to each other for lifelong togetherness. And before that, I want to express you that how I do look us together. I am not that person who wants to do such big fake promises to impress you and to make you feel happy. I want to do such promises which I actually can fulfill and wanted to give you from the bottom of my heart. I am not requiring any AMAR PREM KATHA with you. But I definitely want to make this story one in a billion. So I do such promises to you.

Dear, I promise to always lift you up, when you are feeling down.

I can’t promise you that I will never make you cry, but I promise to wipe your tear, when you feel you need to cry.

I can’t promise you to never disappoint you. But I promise to keep you smiling, to show off that beautiful smile you have.

I can’t promise you to never let you down, But I promise to be your strength, whenever you fall weak.

I can’t promise surprise you make you speechless, But I promise to be your voice, when you can't find the words.

I can’t promise you to don’t show you my anger, But I promise to be your eyes, when you cannot see.

I can’t promise you that I’ll never miss-word anything, But I promise to be your ears, when you cannot hear.

I can’t promise you that I’ll never argue you. But I promise to always tell you what's real, when you want to hear the truth.

I can’t promise you to fulfill your all wished and drams, But I promise to be your dream catcher, to chase away your every fear.

I can’t promise you that I will never left you alone, But I promise to be your smile, when you're frowning.

I can’t promise that I will become the reason of all your happiness, But I promise to always cheer you up, when you are down and blue.

I can’t promise you to support you in everything, But I promise to give you faith, when you are feeling insecure.

I can’t promise you to keep you safe forever, But I promise to keep you sturdy, when you are feeling unsafe.

I can’t not promise to always accept you, But I promise to listen, when you need to talk.

I can’t promise that I will explain everything, But I promise to tell you no lies, just what is true.

I can’t promise that I never let you cry, But I promise to always lend you my shoulder, for when you need to cry.

I can’t promise to follow you always, But I promise to always hold you, when you need someone.

I can’t promise to never hurt you, But I promise to always care for you, wherever you are, I promise to always be there.

I can't promise you the world. I promise to never break your heart.

I can't promise you the sky. I can't promise you that we will never fight.

I can't promise you that I will never cry, But I can promise you that I will always be true to you,

And baby, I can’t promise that I will always love you more than anything with all my heart but I definitely promise you that I will always try to make myself deserving for your love and it’s respect.

No matter what happens or what we go through.

I'll allow you only to love the whole me until the end of time!

I'll be your guardian angel. That's my promise to you!

I don’t think so that I ever need to think again for you’re to be with.

I don’t think so that I need to love you to be happy with you.

I just need you the same as you met me. I want to live the whole life with you like a maiden second.

Like the same it started, it should be ended the same.

I don’t want a best partner of the world. I just need best of your forever.

I want you the same as you met me. I want the same I found you.

I want you the same you impressed me. I want you the same you won me.

I want to the same you’ll take me. I want you the same at the end of 4^th or 5^th decade of our togetherness. I wanted you the same at the end of my life. Nothing much and else.

All I need is you, to be with me and to keep me with you anyhow, anywhere, anytime forever.

And that is only the way of Love I do and I expect only.

Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my FIGHTER MAN.

-Becoming Yours

YJS