...MisUnderstanding,

...you said it was just a misunderstanding
but it wasn't
how could you say that
i understand perfectly what happened
why can't you

it was not a misunderstanding
i said no
i said stop
i cried
i yelled
i trembled
and i was in both physical and mental pain

but she didnt listen
She was forceful
and aggressive
and i couldnt wrap my head around what just happened
until several hours later

you found out the next day
and decided to come up with your own conclusions
but you won't listen to what actually happened

you ignore
and pretend its nothing
that it was a misunderstanding
and that i am okay

well i am not okay
it was not nothing
and its okay to not be okay
and its okay to have something going on in your life

but you weren't there for me
even though you tell everyone you were
she wouldn't be proud
and you know exactly who I'm talking about

she's looking over not just me
but you as well
and she's devastated

as well as i am

because it was not a misunderstanding
it was assault
it was ****
it was wrong

_keyur_everything 

...i should,

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Which life shall I follow?
What path should I take?
Should I go left or right?
And make the same mistakes.
Like I've done in the past.
Or should I move far away and start over again?
Because I'm a senior in high school and knew too much about the game.
The Lifestyle? The People? and even about the Money?
For me it all has to change.
So what do I do?
Because I've made big mistakes.
It's either this way or that way.
What more can I say?
I guess whatever comes down to it...
I'm going to change and make my grandma proud because she's up in heaven
With all the other angels like family members
I have lost in the past 8 years for goodness sake
So I guess I am going to change
But not for my own good
But for someone who always counted on me
No matter what mistakes I've made
Because in the end
I got a whole team up in heaven
Who want to see me make it
And when I hit that ball over the fence
You know I didn't do it for me
But for the loved ones
We miss very truly

_keyur_everything

...your tears,

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I come when pain

Becomes too much to take.
I come when you're sad,
Or your heart starts to break.

I might come when you panic,
I might come when you're mad.
I'll show up here and there,
When enough is what you've had.

I'm salty and warm,
I might be big or small.
Sometimes when you're strong,
I don't come up at all.

 

I fill your eyes with moisture,
I roll down your cheek.
Sometimes I mean joyous,
Sometimes I mean weak.

Sometimes when you're scared,
I come as a sign of fear.
You can feel when I'm coming,
Whether far or near.

I may come along
When you hear your favorite song.
Sometimes I show up
When you've been strong for too long.

I know you want to fly away.
I know inside you're a mess.
You long for a brighter day.

 

They are you tears,
your tears are words, your heart can't express.

_keyur_everything

...ek mulaaqat,

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Vaah, 

Hu aaje ene madyo... 

Ene madva nu nakki thavu, ne madva java nikdi padvu,

Vaah, ketlo utsaah ne ketlo badho umang. 

Tya pohchvu, ene phone karvo, eno jawab na apvo ne adhiraay thi ene aas paas ni vyakti ni aakrutio ma jabarjasti sodhvu, 

Vaah, ketli aaturta ne ketli vyaakudta. 

Enu same prastut thavu ane

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Ane samay, swaas ne e shaam nu aam j thambhi javu. 

Vaah, ketlo santosh ne ketli shanti..! 

Enu najar madavu, baho felavvi, dodine jane mane aalingan aapvu. 

Vaah, ketlu shukun ne ketli khushi..! 

Enu hasvu, ramvu, mane gud-gudavvu, mane pan hasavvu. 

Vaah, ketli nikhalasta ne ketli masti..! 

Enu chidhavvu, enu rizavvu, ene irshyaa thavu ne enu gusse thavu, 

Vaah, ketlu angatpanu ne ketlo adhikaar..! 

Enu samjhavvu, enu mangvu, enu kehvu to vadi enu puchhvu, 

Vaah, ketlo prem ne ketlo vishwas..! 

Enu sopvu, enu jhumvu, enu nachvu ne enu vhaal karvu, 

Vaah, ketli saadgi ne ketli sacchai..! 

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Kaik alag j hatu aaje ene madvu,

kaik alag j hatu aje alag thavu pan, 

Ame hasya e pan radi ne

Ame nachya e pan jhumi ne

Ame najik avya e pan dur karine

Ame ramya e pan jhagdi ne

Ame gusso karyo e pan manavi ne

Ame gaado api e pan sath hovana ehsaas thi

Ame swarth karyo e pan tyaag karine

Ame nadaani kari e pan samjhi Samjhi ne

Ame hukam karya e pan aajiji karine

Ame bedarkari kari e pan chinta karine

Ame vhaal karyu e pan thapko aapine

Ame laad karyu e pan heran kari ne

Ame bhavnao kahi kai j na boline

Ame aalingan karyu e pan dur rahine

Ame chumya pan e pan nisparsh rahine

Ame rokai gaya e pan dur thaine

Ame prem karyo e pan tiraskar karine

Ame garv karyo aavi mitrataa karine

Ame sath nibhavyo e pan dur rahine

Ame mehsoos karyu e pan vyakt na karine

Ame aa badhu karyu ek var madi ne

Ame aa shaky karyu e pan hakikat karine

Ame madya e pan naa madine

Ne ante ek thai gaya bas alag thaine

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_keyur_everything

...her Mom,

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I was excited while moving towards her home to deliver her fruits which she asked for. Was excited like i was going on a date. She was going to look at me, that vision gonna give her a lot peace and strength for upcoming days. So i was going importantly for that. And i had her call that she is not available at home, please deliver that fruits to my mom.

Ohh, it was so demoralizing. But i reached positively at her home. I stand in front of her home's gate and i called her mom to ask for picking fruits. She received a call and told me that i am coming.

She instantly came and wow. Something great i felt. Its was late evening which was not giving enough light to notice deatiled face of her but actually i could. I could beacuse her face was lighting like a moon. Brightness of her face was attractive. Her eyes and smile were major attraction. She was energetic. She was strong and smooth. She looked lovely.

I noticed that she came like in hurry that may be she was already in middle of something. She came in hurry like she wanted me to wait for no time. She came in hurry like she was so respectful for me that i came to deliver specially.

I noticed her sparkling eyes, which was shining after been wiped with so many tears ahead. That eyes were showering blessings like vaccine of that every pain she faced.

I noticed her bright face, which was brightening after been wrinkled with so many age of time she faced in sorrow. That face was spreading happiness like everyone's need which she could not achieved.

I noticed her smiling lips, which was adorable after been silent in so many situation which is just accepted like deserves. That smile was pampering like answering all the bad time she had to faced.

She told me politely.

"'..sorry to give you such trouble.."'

I can understand what she meant to be but how could i say that it was completely not neccesory.

I am sorry actually. That i just noticed but could not convey the same to her.

I am sorry that i could not tell her that you are not giving me any trouble, you are sharing me your trouble. Which is proud for me.

I am sorry that i could not tell her that this is not a trouble. If i could not do anything in this time, that will become a trouble for me.

I am sorry that i could not tell her that this trouble is not a trouble. As for me, you are my family too.

But its okk. I said that its not a trouble at all.

Honestly, she was beautifull. Beautiful like i could imagine two big things which are making me so happy from inside.

First, that i could found that she used to be much more beautifull when she was at the age of her daughter.

And second, i could found that how beautiful her daughter will looks at current age of her mom.

I just love her mom like mine.

I just love her mom like her.

I just love her mom like mom.

_keyur_everything 

...your absence,

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I can feel your smile

rest upon my face

And I can feel the warmth

and gentleness of your embrace

I can hear your laughter

it’s music to my ears

And your voice still whispers to me

and wipes away my tears

I imagine you

right here with me

the one and only place

you are meant to be

This is your home

here in my heart

but fate has been unkind

and time has kept us apart

So, I imagine you

right here with me

I remember that sparkle

that dances in your eyes

when something makes you happy
just to be alive

I remember your smile

which i need more n more,

your intentional touches,

which turns me on,

I remember your spirit

and how it set me free

How the tender side of you

put me at ease

I imagine you

right here with me

the one and only place

you are meant to be

This is your home

here in my heart

but fate has been unkind

and time has kept us apart

So, I imagine you

right here with me

_keyur_everything 

...your Innocence,

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Your Innocence is beauty, your Innocence is rare;
Your Innocence is a wonderful thing to share.
Your Innocence is graceful, your Innocence is elegant;
Your Innocence is the enchanting music the angels chant.

Your Innocence is what makes an adult from a child,
Your Innocence is where we came from before going wild.
Your Innocence is carefree and is not confined;
Your Innocence is sin-free, heart, body and mind.

Your Innocence is not ignorance nor naive,
Your Innocence is true and shouldn't be deceived.
Your Innocence is honesty, pure and white.
Your Innocence is unstained, the light of the night.

Your Innocence is worthless once it is gone,
Your Innocence is a gift given by One to one.
Your Innocence is cared for and cherished,
Your Innocence once given will fade away and perish.


Your Innocence is a treasure indescribable by literature,
Your Innocence is a word out of art and science, past or future.
Your Innocence is love, or so we thought before;
When your innocence was with someone they don't even know anymore

_keyur_everything 

...your Music,

...I observed,

I observed her differently.

I observed her hearding,

Hearding the music,

The music with lyrics,

A lyrics which relates,

Relates with her feels,

Feels which are real,

Real like her expressions,

Her expressions were cute,

Cute like she called i am,

I am loving her,

Loving her like she do,

She do cares,

Cares like the mom do,

Mom do real love,

Real love is a biggest desire,

Desire is to having her,

Having her is the gift of god,

Gift of god is her heart,

Her heart is real gold,

Gold is her hug,

Her hug is sensation,

Sention from her touch,

Her touch is peace,

Peace like dance give,

Dance gives meditation,

Meditation is happiness,

Happiness is music for her,

Music for her is heaven,

Heaven is her dream,

Her dream is being she,

Being she as she is being in dream,

In dream with all freedom,

Freedom is her believe,

Her believe as her fevorite music,

Her fevorite music is happy music,

She loves HAPPY MUSIC,

and this is real she, real you...🙂

_keyur_everything